I’ve done so well over the past week and then today I had a picnic with friends and just continued to snack on horrible things all.  day.  if I’m at home or whatever I can always resist eating too much but when I’m out with my friends, which is a lot of the time, it’s like I have no control over what I eat and I just eat and eat and fucking eat.  I feel so shitty.  plus it’s almost that time of the month so I’m packing on the water weight and was in for a really depressing shock when I looked at the scale this morning.  I know it’s just uncontrollable water weight gain but god.

tomorrow is going to be better.  I’m staying in to clean and work out and clean some more and I’m not going anywhere and hopefully I’m not going to eat more than what is absolutely necessary to keep me going through a really intensive workout. 

tomorrow is going to be better.